Well, it's 2 days until Valentine's Day and I am really dreading it. There will undoubtedly be a parade of flowers through my office, with lots of giggling "look what I got" cries from my co-workers. Don't get me wrong, I think that's great for them. It's just that, this year, I sorta thought that I would be one of them, reciving some lovely token of affection from a special person. And it really hurts that I came so close to that and lost it so abruptly, so unfairly. I haven't heard from S, nor do I expect to, nor do I want to talk to him or see him at all, considering how shabbily he treated me. My mind knows that I'm better off without him in my life at all, but my heart isn't as quick to listen. I miss him - I miss what we had, and what I thought (and hoped) for our future together. Life is going on, and I'm trying hard to do the same. Most of the time I'm dealing with it but this is going to be tough.
So I'm having my single women friends over for dinner and company, and that will help. We're having salad and loaded baked potatoes, plus chocolate fondue for dessert. And I think I'll make some margarita's too. It will be nice having everyone over, and it will help. But I really hate this holiday.
More blogging will follow when I'm feeling better and less negative.
